thought it was about time I actually started blogging again

So in my last blog post, I said ‘expect a new blog within the next few days. Firstly, the grammar there is terrible, it should be blog post, not blog – oops! Secondly, that was a bit of a fail as here I am roughly six weeks later finally doing another blog post. But to be quite honest, not much was happening in my life at the time and any blog post I could have written would have sent anyone reading it to sleep.

I don’t even know where to start with my life right now. God is starting to work in it again even though I continue to mess up. http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/s/simon_brading/im_alive.html These lyrics apply so much to my life it’s like they were written about me. I can’t find the song on YouTube, but it’s on the Newday – You Reign album if you wanna buy it :) 

So, that’s what’s going on right now.  As for the future, I’ve thought about it far too much about it for far too long.  I mean, for quite a while I’d given up on getting married, and had accepted that I’d end up a single mum living off benefits in a council house (after all, that was all I’d ever known). Then for a while, my attitude was, if I kiss enough frogs, I’ll find my prince eventually. But now I realise that I just need to trust that God will find me someone when the time is right.

As for work and education, I’m still not entirely sure what I’m going to do. I’m still passionate about kids and youth and am currently looking into doing some sort of childcare/education apprenticeship. I’m also planning on doing my church’s gap year program at some point. But whether or not that's what happens is a completely different story.

But none of this scares me anymore. I have faith that God has my future in His hands and things will all work out for the best. Until then, I need to work on myself and my relationship with God.