Random Jumble of Thoughts

I’ve realised lately that so many of the younger teenage girls look up to me not only as a youth leader, but also as a friend and ‘older sister’ figure. It’s pretty scary to know that my words and actions can influence so many young people. It’s my responsibility to be a good example for them - at that age; you’re so easily influenced by your peers and can really go off the rails.

I know people a lot worse than me, but I’m by no means perfect. I’ve done so many things over the years that I regret, but now I’m starting to understand that those are the things that make me who I am today. I think, for me personally, I needed to mess up to grow up. I have some amazing Christian friends from not only KCC (my current church), but also ABC and MSCF (my past churches), who have lived their lives without really messing up and I really respect them for it, but I know that if I hadn’t experimented, I would resent God for ‘not letting me’ have fun. So thank the Lord for free will, and even more for grace. Because when you try things out and realise they’re not that great, you can go back to Him. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not one of those geeky religious people – to be honest, people like that annoy me so much! I’m not religious, I’m a Christian – and there is a BIG difference.